Let me ask you this.. what do you think of yourself? You’ve touched on what everyone else thought of you; parents, family, teachers, etc but what do you think of yourself? Truly answer that. At the end of the day other people can say and do what they want just the way you choose too. If you’re letting other people thoughts dictate how you’re going about life with or WITHOUT a stutter or speech disorder you’re going to feel trapped in a hell bent state of mind. Be confident in yourself confident in your speech and own whatever it is you do in this world take pride in the words you can get out and when you want to speak FUCK what others have to say just make sure you say what’s needed to be said. You are only strong and you can do anything even if it’s difficult (I should add I stutter hard my dude) you can’t let people make you. Stand up speak up for yourself and separate from the things in your life that’s causing you to feel like crap and get a new job if places refuse to hire you bc of speech issue that’s discrimination and it’s illegal to do so so find a job you’re actually interested in. Anyways I hope you find peace with your issue!