“Mum will be sad” is the only reason that is keeping me alive till now
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“Mum will be sad” is the only reason that is keeping me alive till now First، chill! I am not gonna hurt myself. but you know.. my problem is not how hard my life is. its more about the boredom, the emptiness the lack of human interaction the lack of purpose and intimacy the lack of everything that brings joy and meaning to life. Expressing ourselves is what makes us humans, being someone who stutters severely is boring its so fucking boring to the point that makes you see life as a constant torture. I work hard, I spend 12 hours of my day at work i approach people with caution to avoid being asked questions and not being able to answer because I can’t get a single word out of my mouth. My stutter is bad to the point where last week i celebrated being able to say a complete sentence and i had no idea how it went good and i was able to say “yeah everything must be in the bag Now finishing this post i just wanna add that I haven’t had a 10 minutes conversation with anyone in 3 years except with my mum on the phone i am very fluent