Thank you so much for replying it really means the world to me! 🥺 I didn't want to acknowledge it since I wanted to push things, maybe if I didn't think about it it wouldn't exist. Now I really want to change for the better, and listen to my feelings. I get you with the projects, it is essential to have something else going on so you don't think about it to much, and have that light that says that you are worth it even though your brain is telling you the exact opposite. I feel your frustration, I'm like this to, asking myself why and how, like it never ends. Thank you for understanding, feeling and sharing, I felt alone but not anymore. Your reply really made the day for me. Thank you.