I had an interview a few years ago. My anxiety was terrible at this stage, it was in front of a panel of 4 people. I opened the interview by telling them that I have a stutter and I might have issues with a few words. They were all supportive about it and it really took the pressure off and I spoke very fluently because of it and the interview was successful. When you’re interviewing for something that is that important to you, you might as well let them know, at least that way it can facilitate less awkward moments. Like maybe you know the answer but you can’t say a word, instead of avoiding it or pretending like you can’t remember, you can just say that you know the answer but it’s a struggle word, and spell it out for them instead or something. An employer might really appreciate that level of openness as well. I’ve been very depressed in the past and it used to eat away at me. A few weeks ago I had a terrible episode on the phone but managed to not make such a big deal of it. Being positive really does make a difference, we need to learn to enjoy speech (yes it’s difficult) and look forward to opportunities to express ourselves rather than fear it. And I second the opinion above, Lee Lovett is a great asset, I’ve been reading his book recently to remind me techniques to focus on, instead of focusing on my ability to say a word, I’m trying now to focus on how I say the word, pitch, tone, emphasis, pace etc. I hope you don’t beat yourself up too much. There’s always brighter days.