You're on point. That's exactly what all stutterers or speech impared persons feel everyday, but they just hang in there painfully and keep living. I'm 45, sought to talk about my predicament in my twenties, but all said they didn't notice my stammer. To my Mom, I only spoke a bit faster than the rest of my siblings. I have decided a long time ago I won't take my life. Let me go through life unnoticed by the whole world, but convinced I will make enough impact to make a small section happy 😊😊😊.