Thank you for the kind words When I have fluency seasons, I try to practice my speech as much as possible – I talk to people, I buy some cake in pastry shop (but only the one whose name I feel I can pronounce, you know, sometimes I see the name of the product and I just know there’s no sense in saying it because I can’t do it), I start a short conversation with the lady in the store (even if it’s just that ,,good morning…. No, I don’t have a membership card…. I’m already taking out my wallet… thank you, goodbye’’ But then the black clouds come again and it is as it was began: only fear and blocks, blocks, blocks, blocks… In fluency seasons, negative thoughts aren’t so big problem, of course there are, but now I’m can’t really deal with them. I try to ,,eat them” with sweets, sleep or watch TV. I’m glad you overcome your problems.