Dropped out of my dream university due to stutter
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Dropped out of my dream university due to stutter I worked so hard to get in that Uni, but all my hard work went into drain. I was doing bachelors in Computer Science and I am required to give many presentations and speeches, but due to my stutter I couldn't give them properly. The first time i went to give a presentation in front of my whole class was embarrassing, I could open my mouth to even say my name I went like M...M...MY NAME IS R...R....R...R, I didn't even say my name I gave my presentation so bad that my professor started looking at his phone while i was presenting and everyone in my class were laughing silently by putting hands on their mouth, I was on stage with tears falling from my eyes and everyone is laughing, I couldn't take it, I stopped my presentation and told my professor that I'm done and I left my class went straight into my room and I cried whole day. I couldn't make any friends due to stutter, everyone used to see me as a freak, so I would just sit alone in my class , I couldn't focus on my studies due to the stress and guild, In 3 out of 6 courses in my 1st semester I had to give presentations, I failed in three of them and just like my downfall began I got so depressed and even worse day by day, when I was in 4th semester I became so mentally unstable I became the freak that my classmates were talking about I used to spray perfume on my skin and light it by lighter, my arm is full of burns, I lost 20 kgs(185cm,46kgs). The last nail in the coffin was my professors and my university therapist, I tried to talk to them about my problems and explained to them about my situation, they were so arrogant one of my professor told that It's my mistake for choosing computer science, he said " If you can't even speak, how will you able to attend interviews and find a job', and my therapist literally ghosted me, I realized that this isn't the place for me an I don't wanna spend a single penny on this university. Now I'm feeling very hopeless and scared, I don't have any other skills other than education, I'm a huge nerd ever since I was a child I've only cared about is education, I had very big dreams, they will always be dreams