You speak because you know you have something valuable to say. you know, even behind what you tell yourself and what others say that you DO provide value to conversations, speeches, or really anything that involves speaking. I feel your struggles, and Being a 19 year old and also a male (I believe you are a male based on your diction) I can think of even more problems you and I both face. some examples: the immensely huge social aspect of college- Greek life, going out to bars and parties. And then there’s flirting, feelings of, well she might want a macho type dude, not me... a stutterer. That is bullshit and I can tell you that right now. Proof you might ask? Well Me myself is living proof and also do you remember being a high schooler and thinking all the chicks wanted a dude with a six pack who played sports. And then a few years later the whole dad bod trend was huge. You can’t ever “expect” when dealing with girls, you’re really just projecting. To wrap this up man, I feel you, I really do. I’m in the same boat and deal with the same shit. I was skipping class in fear of not being called on and having to expose my stutter, but no more. My pms are open man.