Same here bro, I used to feel exactly how you feel, here's my story. I have other issues other than stuttering which make people not want to even look at me or try to talk to me. I've always been rejected by other people and I could literally go all day without talking to anyone, teachers and "friends" were making fun of me every day and I was slowly becoming mentally unstable I lost my self esteem and I started hating myself (a lot more happened) and eventually I tried suicide twice but I just wouldn't die I was going to do it a third time when my country went in lockdown and I went home, thought about my life and decided I'll try one more time I've been recovering mentally and even though I have no friends I feel better about myself than I have ever in a long time. Hopefully I'll live long enough to prove everyone wrong. My advice to you is love yourself enough that you're willing to go by life alone and prove everyone wrong. If you're wondering about my parents they are the ones who pushed me the most to attempt suicide twice. Nobody in my family really gives af about me unless it's my birthday. I do have this one aunt who's been with me all through and I trust and love more than my mother