If it is negatively affecting you that much, as it did me too, then try a different therapy. The biggest obstacle is money. I don’t know what to say about that. I saw some very young people (<10 years old) and teenagers go through Hollins and do extremely well. I don’t know how well it held up through the years, but I think for many it does. I know that when I practice my “targets” (which is what they teach) I do very well and sound normal. There therapy slows my speech down a bit, which actually relaxes me, and others, quite a bit. Check them out on the web, HCRI in Roanoke, VA. They have scholarships.