Stuttering is leading to depression over the realization that I can probably never get a travel job due to it.

Stuttering is leading to depression over the realization that I can probably never get a travel job due to it. Hey y’all, I’m a high school senior with a stutter since childhood. I just feel like a sack of rubbish, because of my stutter. Traveling is one what I love most in this world, and right now I am in India on an international trip. I have spoken English all my life, but Indian in India who speak English as a second sound native compared to me. I feel depressed knowing that getting a travel job for me will be so so hard since I can’t talk well. The last thing I want is a 9-5 routine job, I just find that so soulless and don’t wanna spend my life that way. I wanna hustle and spend my nights in airports, hotels, etc. But I can’t because I was trapped since childhood. My stutter prevents my dream from happening. Because I came even say “thank you”. I could get a 9-5 because the ADA would save me from stuttering discrimination, but will I get a travel job ever, no. Flight attendant, pilot, English teacher, sales rep, all are impossible. I have intrusive thoughts about this every day and every day for me is hell with envy and jealousy for those who who weren’t born with this curse. Being unconscious is the only time I am not miserable. I decided to do a coding major but I am not that smart. Even if I learn enough coding to get a job, will I ever be able to get a traveling job with my stutter or is it that just for the best of the best coders? I need help guys, stuttering has robbed me of everything I wanted in life. Does anyone have advice in his stutterers can get travel jobs? That last thing I want in life is to be like Squidward where I waste it being miserable everyday, I feel fear that I will always be envious and miserable too which makes me hyperventilate even. 😖😣😔😞