Hey, I can relate to some of what you mentioned. I suffer with anxiety and depression, which has been worsened by a Neurological condition that's gotten bad lately. You have to embrace the ideas that 1. The stutter sounds waaaaay worse to you. Most people don't notice or don't care. And 2. You are cool and chill even with the stutter. Anyone who doesn't like it or makes you feel bad about it, then they can fuck right off. You don't even need to talk to flip the bird XD Def grab a therapist or counselor stat to talk about this.