This is a hypocritical post and I feel bad..

This is a hypocritical post and I feel bad.. I have stuttered all my life, however when I meet people who also stutter or watch videos of it I just can't talk or watch the video for long... I feel so bad for doing this since I know what it's like Idk how to explain it or whatever but ye... I guess it shows me what I look like to other people and I just can't idk... ;/ Is anyone else like this?