I totally feel you buddy. I ask myself that all the time, too. I'm also 21 like you :) I think we all feel our lives would have been easier if we didn't stutter, things would be different, but not perfect, even if when I play that scenario in my head I feel like it would almost be perfect. But everyone has issues; so I think we gotta focus on our actual life and not fantasize too much about what "could have been". I say this but I do it all the time too lol. Anyway one thing my stutter has taught me is to be empathetic with others; I think I can understand others struggles because my life is basically a constant struggle, and in a way I'm grateful for that.