You have to take control the best you can. Hoping and waiting won’t work. Try some speech therapy’s out and see which works best for you. You (pretty much all stutterers) need to see a mental health therapist too because your self image and view of the world is distorted. This is all natural for a stutterer. Your anger is natural. I’ve been there. It sucks, but it’s the way it is. Get some control over it. I went to Hollins in Roanoke, Virginia, several times in my life. It helped me and helped some severe stutterers that were in the class with me a lot, but it’s not for everyone. Find what works for you. Life ain’t fair. Hopefully it will help you grow some compassion for others that aren’t “normal” or are otherwise marginalized or discriminated against. That’s about the only positive thing I can say in its defense,