I have quite the vivid memories from years ago of me stuttering publicly with people reacting weird about it, so I'm not the person to ask for help in this case. What I can say is that, you're not alone in this man. This community struggles with this every now and then and the only thing you can do is simply try to ignore it or convince yourself that you're the only person who makes a big deal out of it. Most people barely notices or cares, and if they were to end up talking shit about you behind your back there's nothing you can really do about it. You're you and you can't really change it. Try to embrace it and don't be too hard on yourself. If people were to smirk or think it's weird - you need to put yourself in their shoes, if you're not used to stuttering, stuttering may come off as pretty funny or weird, there's really no need to feel ridicule from people that's just never witnessed it really. You either identify with your stuttering or you surpress it, what you need to do is accept it. People have the shittiest lives with illness and you get to repeat a word, get a block, prolonging, whatever - and you make a big deal out of it, it's really nothing in the great scheme of things. Sorry about this rant, I think I needed to process some thoughts myself, thanks for the thread.