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Feeling down like always Had this stammer ever since I can talk. Over the course of my high school years and now uni I've had great success and one of the top achievers in exam. But always got bullied and ignored by teachers and fellow students alike. I tried to compensate with my writing skills yet to no avail in social situations and in the class especially during presentation. My stammer's real bad like I've to incredibly force the words out of my mouth until I'm outta breath and my face hurts. They loooked at me like I'm a freak and sighed like its a waste of time. Also have no success in gaining or maintaining permanent friendships. I'm really, really jealous when during group discussions and I know all the answers but I couldn't say them out loud because no one understands me. It gets on me emotionally and I'm angry and sad and disappointed, going to the bathroom after classes just to scream an punch things over and over again. Everyone seems to judge people by the way they talk and when they don't actually know my scores or anything, I seem like a retard (sorry) to them. Sorry guys I just wanna let this out somewhere. Its really hard and I'm just frustrated AF.