commentr/StutterJuly 20, 2021

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my boyfriend has a stutter. we met via a dating app which was helpful because it allowed me to know he had a stutter (he openly had mentioned it on his profile) as opposed to being surprised when we first met. I had never met anyone with a stutter prior but honestly after a few hours of talking with him I began to not even notice. We have been together for about 6 months now. I merely see it as a part of him, like if he had pink hair or something. Not as a good or bad but just as a fact of life. (although now i find it quite endearing) it’s sweet to know someone with a stutter will push past their insecurities to open up to you and talk even if it is tiring or frustrating. I feel honored to get to know him in a way that other people only get a glimpse of. Also, I’m not one for settling, so I can assure you I didn’t do that. He’s not well off money wise or family wise so no ulterior motives either. Being embarrassed is truly something I as a fluent speaker do not understand. I don’t have the trauma most stutterers have so I don’t correlate having a stutter to being a bad thing. I know it makes life hard for sure but that doesn’t mean your life is worth less. I proudly stand by him as he makes conversation with the employee at the gym or fumbles his words as he asks a question to the guy guiding traffic. I’m in love with him, so why would I be embarrassed by him haha. He always says that there are people who would be embarrassed and if that’s the case then fuck them, just like if they were embarrassed by you having pink hair, fuck them. The biggest struggle we have had is him meeting people from my life. I want him to meet my friends and family but he gets worked up and very anxious about it and usually bails. I am never disappointed in him though. I find he is more embarrassed about his stutter than anyone else. It’s hard finding a balance between my need for social life and his feelings about his stutter being embarrassing and emasculating. We’re working on it each day though. I try to encourage him just as he encourages me. We celebrate his conversations with strangers and I never feel as though I am better than him. We are on a team just as a relationship should be. As for getting over it, I’m not quite sure. Find things you like about yourself and and start there. You will receive rejection just like everyone else. Work hard to relish in your triumphs and focus on that. I know there’s other people out there that aren’t dicks, best of luck (:

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Social & RelationshipsIdentity & DisabilityEmotional Experience

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Dating & RomanceAcceptance & PrideAnxiety & Social JudgmentShame & EmbarrassmentHope & Motivation