You sound like me, I go through the same thing! If I think too much about my blocks I get stuck and that’s when I freak out. Winging it and speaking without thinking about it always comes out better. Which sucks because then we can’t really “think before we speak” as easy. But whatever works right? And aww thanks! That means a lot same for you. It gets lonely being the 1% lol. Oh and one tip that has really helped me is getting a good nights rest. If I get any less than 7 hours my speech is significantly worse. World of a difference for me!