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stuttering sucks so much I stutter my whole life, and I still cant get used to it. I hate how I dont even "stutter" but I do that thing which sounds like "o-o-oo-u" and cant breath anymore, people are lookin at me like what the fuck mate, and I still cant get over it. Mostly when I'm speaking in english (its not my native language). For example, when I'm in school and we have english and I am about to read something, I start to feel really stressed out, and can't say even first letter of the word. Things like "just breath in and out" or "slow down" don't help at all, I know that people who are trying to help me and say that don't know that, but it make situation worse for me. Even when someone finish sentence for me, it feels so bad, that I stutter even more. I feel like I have to shout at everyone to understand that, if you don't stutter, you are a happy person, you can say whatever you want whenever you want. In any language you want. I would give anything to stop stuttering. I have been on lot therapies, but none of them helped me, and if it did, it was just for short time. People are not aware what stuttering is like and make fun of it. I'm not like "no you can't say that, its offensive to me" but I hate when someone start to laugh at me when I stutter, it feels so embarassing. I would love to tell people how does it feel and how is it to stutter, but no one ever asks "how does it feel to stutter?" or "what should I do to help you stutter less?". It feels so sad that I can't even open myself about this type of stuff. I envy you if you don't stutter, you are happy person if you speak in normal way. I'm happy that I at least found this subreddit but this is probably last time when I'm speaking "loud" about stuttering.