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Fuck this, man I'm going to vent about something that happened like 2 hours ago. So, today I had to do a presentation (it's like 80% of this class grade), it was in groups, so before presenting I told them that I didn't manage well speaking in public and they were like oh ok, no problem! And before my teacher entered the room I told her the same thing and she was like oh okay. Mind you, this teacher is kind of um... mean spirited and old fashioned. When it was my first time to speak it went decent, then another one started to speak but as soon as my second time to present came I had to substitute a lot of words so I would continue to speak fluently, by doing this, even though my point came across, made the "techincal quality" of the info I was giving to go down, this was when my teacher stopped me and started to tell me in front of the whole class that "Yeah, yeah, you told that you have a hard time speaking in public, but I was like that too and look! I'm a university teacher now! the way you are speaking makes me feel like I don't have an education because you're not using technical terms" and she went on like that for like 10 minutes, but basically she told us to continue tomorrow but I had to say everything in the correct words. I told her that I could continue now but just said no. The cherry on top is that she was already mad because the first person from my group who spoke read almost everything, so she thought I didn't know my topics. My team was obviously mad at me, I had to open up about my stutter, but as usual they didn't understand because it's something that is not as common, one just said "oh, grow up, you're in your 20s and can't speak?" or "well, just stutter! or does that create a conflict with yourself?" I wanted to speak with my teacher in her cubicle but she was not there, emailed her so I could disclose my stutter with her in person, but she didn't answer so I went with my school tutor, I explained everything, had to obviously tell her about my stutter, and tell her that this extra day to "get a grasp and prepare better" wouldn't do anything lmao, that it's something I just can' control, she understood, and told me she was going to email my teacher and well, know I'm here ranting and feeling humilliated and down, with ZERO desire to return tomorrow and look everyone in my class after this.