No, dont say that. Life is tough, especially when you feel you've been handed all the wrong cards. I agree - therapy doesn't exactly seem to help unless its intensive. Just know a lot of people struggle with the same stuff you do, please dont feel alone or feel like life isn't worth it. It's the worst feeling ever. I was the type of girl that was pretty much mute, suicidal and was always alone... trust me, I feel you. It's gotten so much better now, I stopped giving two shits and Im more confident and worked on my appearance and such. It made a huge difference for me, and I know it can for you. Keep you chin up, improve yourself, be confident. If you need someone to vent or talk to, inbox me.