Yea that sucks. Stuttering is extra shitty because the more you try the harder fluency is... I had a friend who stuttered so badly—listening to him was hard. He was never very fluent but he talked constantly. He’d initiate conversations at bars with total strangers—things I’d consciously avoid even though by all accounts I was much more fluent most of the time. That said, you can’t let it keep you quiet. When I’m having an extra hard time talking, I’ll usually just explain what’s going on and it seems to help. Like acknowledging the 800lb gorilla in the room