This is exactly how I feel most of the time. Them: “Hi my name is such and such” Me: “Hi...” Then I feel like an idiot and all day everyday for days if not weeks and I go over and over it every spare minute in my mind. It’s an awful thing to live with. The thing is, I grew up around a lot of video games. And I used other names online all the time. Nate, as it is on Reddit, isn’t my first name. But it’s the name I’ve used online for as long as I can remember. I can say it, can I guarantee I wouldn’t stutter with it? No, but I would significantly less. And it still feels like me even if it isn’t my name now. I think that makes it all the more tempting. Thanks for your thoughts friend, you’re not a “total idiot”, try never to think that again 😊