Your outlook on the situation is your biggest problem. Not your stutter. And this isn't unique. As we live with our stutter, we start forming biases. We make some pretty bold assumptions about others. And while we might be correct in some cases, most of the time we're dead wrong. But the energy we put out there when we "know" how others will receive us doesn't do us any favors. Start working on unlearning some of these things you know about others and your stutter. Assume the best of people. Be yourself. Which isn't easy, as you've likely been unwilling to be yourself for so long that you've distanced yourself from that person. You won't get back to whoever that is. You will have to move forward to a better version of yourself. One who doesn't assume they know the minds of others. One who does put themselves out there. None of this is easy. And I wish you all the best.