Try therapy You miss 100% of shots tou dont take. Maybe therapy is not going to be for you, but at least you will find out for yourself. I also did not want to go, because i tought therapy will be useless, but i went and it was not so bad, i learned sone new things and its just nice to talk with someone in general, someone who is trying to help and is not judging. I only went twice and now i dont have that much time, but i will go more. As for school, fuck it. There is nothing you can do. Keep your head high, learn how to laugh about yoursel. I know its easier said then done, buy thats all i can do, i can just say it, you have to do it