Yes, I keenly remember how my parents’ regard and behavior changed toward me after age 4. I couldn't conceptualize that my speech was different, but they were embarrassed now when I spoke in public. I went from being their little gem to being imperfect. I felt I had done something to lose their love, and I didn't know what I had done. Childhood can be traumatic. At some point we have to parent ourselves and do everything to create our better self.