Sooo, one of my first job interviews i had a panic attack and sobbed. It was mortifying. I went on to get another offer after becoming a professional and was one of the top “notch” people at my job. Before i left my job to be a SAHP, i was nearly making a six figure salary in a respectable career. I say this to encourage you! It’ll be ok. It’ll get better. Keep trying and don’t be dismayed.