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Suffocating Like everyone else, I know I need to stay positive and not let my stammering define me. But I just need to rant LOL I feel. emotionally drained. Like all the time. I developed my stammer in middle school around 12 years old. Before this, I remember being so confident in school. Always volunteering for leadership roles or to present at assemblies, etc etc. Now the word “present” makes me feel like I can’t breathe. I feel so limited in my life. Humans are social beings and it’s really draining having so much anxiety around the littlest of interactions. I avoid a lot of situations and opportunities. I feel like an embarrassment to my friends and family because of my stutter so i hide myself. People’s reactions don’t really help with this ofc. I know I’m my biggest demon but the way some people react to stuttering is painful. I’ve had people tell me “I’m scaring them” or ask me “what’s wrong with u”. The way the world reacts to any kind of “difference” is just sad. My stuttering impacts every decision I make if I’m being honest with myself. I just want to feel comfortable in life, it’s exhausting being so anxious every day. It’s exhausting having thoughts that make you feel inferior and constantly feeling like you can break down at any moment. On the bright side though, my stuttering has made me more empathetic and for this, I guess I have to see it as a blessing.