I hate my stutter and everything it causes me

I hate my stutter and everything it causes me I know this is a cliche for this sub but I fucking hate how I can't talk like everyone else. I was bullied in middle school and high school for my stutter so when I went to college I took online classes to avoid being bullied again, but I recently got my first real job where I'm not only being bullied by my coworkers for my stutter, but I feel so incapable because so much of the job involves talking customers (I work at what's essentially a chuck e cheese knockoff). I have a best friend who doesn't care about my stutter and a group of friends who invite me to hang out a couple of times a month. I even stumbled my way into getting a girlfriend I've been dating for 7 months now who thinks my stutter is cute. She's completely fallen in love with me for reasons I will never understand but sadly I can't get myself to love her and have lost all feelings for her so I'm planning on breaking things off with her. The only girl I've ever loved I had a 3 month talking stage with and she ghosted me presumably because I didn't say much around her. I've been lurking in this sub for a while and I get the vibe that a lot of yall don't get much social interaction so my life may seem alright to some of yall, but if I'm being honest I fucking hate it. Speaking is such a foundational element of our society and struggling to even say my name makes me fucking hate my stutter and myself. I even attempted suicide a year and a half ago for reasons mainly surrounding my stutter. I find it difficult to imagine growing up and getting a job because what employer would want to deal with my stuttering ass when every other applicant is almost guaranteed to have better communication skills than me. It's just so hard to not feel down when I can't function the way society expects me to. Thanks for reading :)