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I attended HCRI about three months ago and as of now it is working great. I practice twice a day and am almost entirely fluent. I've been considering posting about it but I want to give it some more time so I can be 100% sure it isn't going to wear off. There was a man in my class who had been there like 5 times. Full 12 day sessions, not the 3 day refresher courses. He was incredibly successful in nearly all other aspects of his life, and claimed he kept losing his fluency because he knew he was able to come back at any time and learn it again, so he would stop practicing and slip back into disfluency. I don't know if you're aware of this, but HCRI is now closed. I attended the second-to-last session ever. He knew that now it was different, and he absolutely had to get it right this time. He wanted everyone else to succeed as well, and gave us a world of knowledge that the clinicians simply couldn't, advice on how to tackle the underlying feelings related to the stuttering that speech therapy couldn't help with. I think this is the main reason it doesn't work outside the clinic for many people. The feelings that become engrained in is when we stutter our whole lives is a very difficult thing to break. I don't think I will ever get over the fear of talking on the telephone, and I still have no idea how to maintain conversation with somebody, but I've forced myself to go out there and start talking with people, which has really helped with the fear/embarrassment type part. Going back off to college soon after leaving the clinic helped as well because I wasn't surrounded by people who knew I stuttered, I felt I could blend in more easily. The practicing is absolutely integral as well. If I don't practice, I'm not fluent, simple as that. But the strange part is it feels natural to me. In the clinic I thought it was going to be super straining to do and I was going to hate doing it, but soon after leaving the clinic it really feels like I'm just talking normally. I've even started thinking to myself "on target" and talking on target in my dreams. It still sounds strange to me but when talking I really do feel like myself. It even took a while for the fact that I was fluent to sink in because I didn't ever realize it. This is way longer than I had intended it to be so I'm going to cut it off here but if you're still curious about anything let me know