yeah that was the lowest point of my life. I was even considering harming myself. Glad i didnt. I get that answering part. I went the full 4 years of uni without talking to teachers or answering any questions. I dnt know is easier than explaining. We have a lot in common. Life is still so hard. Meetings everyday and the anxiety is worse than ever. but at least somethings going my way. I can only hope for the best for you. GL dude.