Ok. So real talk here. As a fellow stutterer, did I sleep with escorts? Yes plenty in my 20's. I also got some free action one night stands etc but not all the time as I struggled in the bar / club / social situations with speech and with chronic stuttering, even alcohol didn't help me sound less of a mentally reta....I mean sick person. Girls at that age 16 - 25 when I was that age want to be with confident, well socialized thus confident men. I was the opposite. BUT, is it a good lifestyle, paying for intimacy all the time? No, years go by and you realise you have had no long term relationship or something we humans call 'love'. Yes pay for sex, nothing wrong with that, you are a man. We are designed to spread our seed naturally. Society designed us to be faithful and stick to 1 partner through religion and something called 'a marriage'. That's all made up, a man is supposed to prove dominance by sleeping with as many women as possible. BUT BUT BUT, at some stage, around the age of around 26 - 29, that male hormonal 'hump everything' starts to disappear and you start transitioning to 'dad mode'. You start looking at women you fancy not as objects to have fun with but a possible 'mother of your future children'. That's the age when the male brain calms down a little. If you really want to get into a relationship, work on yourself ie: Get them dollars. Let's say you got dealt the worst hand, you as a man, you were born with short and ugly, physically weak genes and also a disability which in our case is a stutter. For a man being short and physically weak is also a disability but modern society fixes that with education and a high paying non physical desk job. What are the solution to beat the system if you are dealt the worst hand as a man? Money. Better yourself, work hard, you are a man, you are judged by women as a stable provider first then looks 2nd. Money balances out being short and weak or being born ugly and in our case handicapped with bad speech too and with that comes mental disorders like depression and anxiety. With money you can 'buy protection, buy power, buy materialistic things' that gives you respect in society. I was dirt poor, gave up on school, depressed, anxiety blah blah blah, the usual. Minimum wage, crap life, BUT I saved hard, was wise with my money, started investing from my early 20's rather than waste time and money, yes I paid for sex a few times a month but that was my 'out' instead of alcohol or drugs. After working hard, investing my savings, making a bit of money, started my own business and then became a millionaire, went more heavy with realestate investing, more heavy in stock market investing, hell even tried crypto trading, and literally retired by age 37. Once I gained all that, I gained power and respect even being a short, not very good looking guy and with chronic stuttering and the mental problems that come with it. Money saved me. I had women literally fly towards me at any social function, everyone knows who I am now. When I walk into a room, people talk to me, I don't have to start the conversation first. All that came from money and thus POWER. Not looks, height and being fluent. MONEY and POWER. Once you have gained respect in society, there will be no shortage of women wanting to be with you and you can stop paying for intimacy and find the love of your life or even if it's not love....at least the mother of your children and enjoy the feeling of love via your children. And trust me, after children are born, even if you don't like your wife / partner / mother of your children, as a man you will protect your family with your life even if you don't like your partner, because she is the mother of your children. Male brains are weird like that, we go through life wanting to hump everything and not give a fook about anyone, then BAM, you reach the age of 27 - 29 and you will literally sacrifice your life without even thinking for the 'mother of your children' and your own kids. Problem is, it is hard for people like us to find 'the mother of our children' in the first place. BUT money, respect in society, hard work fixes that. As men, we don't have the luxury of 'being pretty' and shit just happens for us. You have to go and fight for it. So go out and fight for what you want. In modern society it's almost ALWAYS money.