Oh man, I understand you completly I went through the same exprience. Ultimatley what bugs me the most about my stutter is that its unpredictable I cant know how I will talk tomorrow, I cant control it, but there is freedom in that- once you understand that you cannot control it and its not your fault you can finally let go, let go from all the analayzes and different secnerios you run. I will keep it real with you, you probably know that the first impression about people who stutter is that uncontrollable laugh, them weird looks, sometimes you fear these reactions so much that you wont even bother taking the shot and see if you get them. You gotta have thick skin dude. you are more than your stutter. maybe sometimes you wont be able to articulate what you want the way you want thats the harsh reality dude. But through out all of this, you will find the people that do care, that love you for who you the ones who truly see you. And you never know heck maybe one day you will stop stutter, or maybe it will get worse. We cant predict how things will turn out for us. you can wake up tomorrow and discover you have cancer(i know... extreme), thats what I came to realize lately, especially with stuttering. So have the courage to see for yourself how your life will turn out, you never know. Stay strong and remember there are people out there exactly like you who triumphed lifes most desired check marks.