Every day is a war within myself

Every day is a war within myself Sometimes it's hard to live like that, thinking every possibility of word combinations which can be said without stuttering... I feel like I am using 100% of my RAM all the time. I believe that hiding is not a solution, but i couldn't embrace it yet. My stuttering is not recognizable, but i know what i feel, i know my struggle. I hope one day I can embrace it, and freely sttuter in my daily life... Tomorrow I have a class at uni, I won't go because I am scare of introducing myself to the whole class. Especially I stutter while mentioning my bachelor's degree. I feel pathetic. I am a grown man and this is what I am scared of. This is the reason that I can't embrace it. It sounds ridiculous.