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Advice Needed. Please Help Diagnosed as a non-stutterer 2 times but encounter speech blocking during high tension-inducing situations (interviews). ​ Im fluent in daily casual conversations with friends, parents, even strangers. 95% of the day I feel virtually fluent. When I confided in a front of mine that I seem to stutter in certain situations, he seemed surprised because he never would have assumed so. ​ When I have to speak loudly in loud environments or large crowds, I notice some speech blocking, but I can overcome this fairly easily. When im speaking to someone I am intimidated by or have to give job interviews, I notice regular speech blocking and I feel that it is very tough to control. ​ When I have given interviews on 1 mg ativan and some proponalol, Ive noticed (so far, from what I've seen) that my speech is virtually fluent, as if I am speaking to a friend of mine. ​ The problem is that ativan is highly addictive, and if I had to give multiple interviews per week during a span of 3-4 weeks, I am risking chance of withdrawal symptoms. Right now I only take about 1.5 mg ativan every 15-20 days and drink 1-2 times a week. I am already suffering from a bit of depression and do not want to further exacerbate this. ​ Any advice here on what to do? I feel completely hopeless. Im tired of botching interviews due to something I have no control over. ​ Is taking ativan 2-4 times a week for a span of 4-6 weeks safe or do I have to look at some alternate solution?