I can relate to this , i wasn’t like this before 2020 , i mean i used to stutter but idgf abt it until the past 3 years where i became more self aware of the way i speak and i think this made me stutter even more and it impacted my self esteem a lot , especially with girls ( in my head i think that they’ll judge me for it and i don’t even try to approach them) , im happy to hear that a lot of people have the same issue than me and they still managed to have successful lives despite that .