I hear ya, im sorry the world is so hard on such a silly disability. My family blames me for not working hard enough to overcome my stutter despite hundreds of hours in therapy and at home. But i know how hard ive worked and they have no fucking clue what we go thru, we don't need their validation. But ya getting rejected by women can be the most painful feeling, but get that shit out of your head and dont even think about it, or it will drag you down fast. Ive dated many women, most of them stuttering was not a big issue. But once im comfortable i dont stutter much but first dates can be dreadful. At least you are bilingual that is so cool!