Has anyone changed or wanted to change their name because of their stutter?

Has anyone changed or wanted to change their name because of their stutter? I’m at a bit of a crossroads. I have a stutter but I’ve become so good at managing it over the years that many people I first meet don’t believe I actually have one. The word I consistently stutter on most is my name. So much so that I have a fear of a lot of social interactions. In school when the teacher used to go around the class to get an answer or get people to read, that sense of crippling anxiety, looking ahead to try and figure out what you’re going to have to say, rehearsing it over and over. It was almost a panic attack, from what I remember. And it’s the same feeling now when I think of situations in which I’m going to have to say my first name. I’m terrified of calling places and making appointments, even the doctors surgery. I’m terrified of introducing myself and have even asked friends ahead of time to introduce me. I hate going to groups in which I’m going to have to introduce myself and I do everything I can to avoid these situations. It’s definitely a form of social anxiety but one I only get around new people; the fear of them asking my name if they haven’t caught it already. A few years ago when I was at uni, I was assaulted and went to counselling; and from that we touched a lot on my stutter. How I stutter more when talking to my parents (who I don’t get on with, particularly my dad) and we decided that I needed to try and introduce myself more, that I need to test waters and push myself and be in those situations in which I have to say my name. And if I do stutter I have to learn that it’s okay to and live with it. I did this all through uni, with new clubs and meeting new people and dealing with new classes of different students. And my stutter improved in general, but saying my name is something that never has. I’ve seen little to no progress when it involves saying that one word out of all of them. So now I don’t know if there’s some associated childhood trauma. That it’s the name my parents chose and the fact I stutter worst when around them and we don’t get on. I feel today that if I changed my name I might feel more in control, which would make me more confident as a person. Being able to introduce myself and make calls and not having to rehearse my name over and over again. I feel it would open up an entirely different world. I would of course, keep my name as a middle name. Because it allows people who already know me to continue calling me that (which I’m fine with), but allows me to grow and continue to live outside of that name. And how often do people ask your middle names anyway! I’m just wondering if anyone else has, or has thought about it? And if it’s helped? Thanks in advance! 😊