I understand how you feel growing up I DREADED school especially high school kids are the worst and it’s like teachers knew I stuttered but would still call on me to read aloud giving me intense anxiety and depression. I know your dreading going back to in school learning but I’m gonna tell you something I wish someone who stuttered said to me.. Who gives a fuck what anyone thinks of you or your speech. Once you graduate these people around you will be nothing but a thing of the past. Your stutter doesn’t define you it’s apart of you. Practice practice practice training yourself how to speak slowly as long as you feed into the fear and anxiety it will eat you up. You are special and unique and one day you’ll have a lot of people around you who will appreciate your uniqueness!! It does get better my friend just hang in there take it a day at a time and stop being so hard on yourself your only human :).