I’m a bit younger than you, just turned 20 a month ago. I’ve stuttered since I was 8 years old and I have the kind of stutter where my who body shakes and my face twitches. I use to deal with it in unhealthy ways. This will sound crazy to everyone, but the best way to deal with your stutter is to be grateful for it. I’m grateful for my stutter. I used to hate it. I blamed my voice for all my problems in my life. There came a time, right before I entered senior year of high school that I chose to turn everything around. My stutter is my gift. It made me so angry that I wanted to be the best at what I do and become a great success story, especially to those with stutters like me. Everything will follow once you are grateful for this hinderance to your speech. I’m relationships, my stutter no longer gets in the way. Recently, there was this cute girl who was tutoring me for physics. After tutoring sessions I would talk to her about my stutter. She took an interest in it, and I know she did because I have this gratitude for it. I believe she saw I never let it hold me back. I think that’s why she agreed to go on a date with me and we’ve been talking for 3 weeks. For relationships, if you just accept you stutter, the right person will want to date you. If they have a problem with your stutter, they’re not right for you. It’s pretty simple. The love of your life will love you and all you come with, including the one thing you absolutely hate. With friends it is the same as before. You just have to say fuck it and stutter around people. If they are meant to be your homies, they won’t care. I’ve had friends since kindergarten, and I’ve made friends in my classes and at my campus job at the gym. Become the initiator of conversation. Most people are shy and quiet nowadays. You’re courage to stutter in front of them will trump their anxiety to even talk when they have no sort of hinderance other than they are shy. For anxiety and depression. My stutter was the source of all my depression. I hated it so much I wanted to end it all because I wanted to know why God cursed my voice. God showed me the way that my stutter is my greatest aspect and is the source of all my success. This is how you have to think. I’m not the best person to discuss depression with. All my thinking is to just do and you will achieve. Not all people can just choose to be no longer sad and that’s perfectly fine. Get professional help if you can. The cure for me was finding self improvement channels on YT, most notably Hamza Ahmed. To address your last question, this is true for me. With my lifting buddy, I barely stutter with him around. He knows every skeleton in my closet. Same thing with the girl I’ve been talking to. She wanted to know about the demons I fight when it comes to my stutter, and with that, I stutter less. Just stick your head up. You’re not alone. We as stutterers need to inspire each other. The world will kick you down so many times when you just wish you could speak. You gotta get up and fight. That’s all I have.