You will get there. it's like riding a bike. It will be stumbly and tough at the beginning after that, once u catch speed, you forget about the worry to balance, you just ride/ start speaking without stammering. Though like riding a bike, sometimes u may fall even after you know how to ride. Just pick up the bike and ride again. Just do it. Dont think. Like if u want to just keep trying. Wish you the best. Also, be kind to yourself during the process, you may stumble but don't let people's judgment stop you, just take small steps at your pace. Sorry if I got too preachy.