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Hi I just wanted to share. I have had a stutter for as long as I can remember and it has seriously impacted every aspect of my life. I have had good spells and some seriously bad spells (in a bad spell nothing fucks me up like a block). I struggle with my words sometimes, I will say words backwards or call something completely different to what it is and end up just mumbling. I have to speak quietly because if I try to speak loudly I struggle with my stutter. I have to really think about what I want to say because if I don't I stutter. I will stutter really bad if I'm in an unexpected conversation or not prepared for what is going to be discussed. I can really struggle to construct sentences and become flustered resulting in a jumbled up sentence or sometimes it's like my head goes blank. I also often struggle to remember what was said in a conversation, I've had this problem my whole life, someone will be talking to me and I can barely recall what was said, this has also been when someone is speaking fast and most definitely happens when I am on the phone. It's almost like nothing registers. I have huge tonsils and a huge tongue, I feel that my mouth and tongue move slower than what I need them to. There are times when i tense up at the back of my throat almost as if my speech is being blocked. I am 42 and I have let life pass me by because of this monster chasing me everywhere I go. I never reached my potential, nowhere near and settled for a shitty life. I gave into the fear and today I feel like a loser, no friends, no decent job, I live like a recluse. Sorry if I've dampened the mood :(