Hey, man. I hate that my speech gets worse when I'm excited, cause you just want to get it out to share the excitement! I know I want to just live in that incredible excitement and be able to say what I'm saying easily, but I swear I think people like us just feel so intensely that it causes a literal handicap, or can at least make our speech worse. It sucks, but really calming down and focusing more on how I'm speaking than what I'm saying helps a lot. I'm not saying you need to get rid of the excitement just tone it down. I'm sure you already know what I'm talking about. But there's a certain way it will feel that you'll be able to recognize if you pay attention to it that is conducive to speaking fluently. Personally, I work through my speech by feel. ​ If you don't already, you need to practice speaking fluently AS OFTEN AS YOU CAN REMEMBER. It's breakdowns like this that are the catalysts for change if you will it. You need to take time to understand more how YOU stutter and moderate it, what YOUR triggers are, what fluency techniques work best for YOUR TYPE OF STUTTERING AND WHEN. You need to be honest with yourself. No one will be able to figure it out better or can care more about it than you. I know what it feels like to not give a shit about it anymore too, but that's a waste of emotional energy and time. You've got this great resource of energy within you, I mean who the fuck can say they were so excited they couldn't get a single sentence out in 30 minutes? Talk out loud to yourself in the mornings/in the car, focusing on how you're forming your words; it will help with talking to people later in the day. Once you start using more and more situations as an opportunity to practice emotional control and fluency, you're going to get frustrated and you can bet your sweet ass you're going to have more breakdowns because it just doesn't seem to be working. You might have more failures than successes, but you know what, you'll get better at feeling it out and it will become more and more a part of you rather than something you have to invest a lot of attention to make happen. ​ I got a great fortune cookie last week and I think it's relevant in this situation. It's hanging on my whiteboard. It says "Take a direct approach at a big decision, and you won't be sorry." ​ Take some more time to learn about and be kind to yourself. You can do this. Fight for it, my dude. And get the girl.