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Adult onset stuttering Hey guys, I've started stuttering basically out of the blue a year ago at 22 years of age... I don't really know the cause of it, It could be drugs, medications I take (Valium and Sulpiride), could also be major traumatic events I've experienced throughout my life.. Basically it started as I know one day when I was out with my mom and my sister. That day I've experienced severe depersonalization and remember when we were talking about something, It was my turn to talk but at the first word of the sentence I startet to repeat the first letter over and over again and just stopped talking.. We were just sitting there silently embarrassed about what had just happened lol.. I do remember a month ago before this event when I was taking speed (amphetamine) I just had a mild stutter at a sentence once a week and didn't think anything of it.. Anyways, from that event with my mom and sister I kind of developed a fear of stuttering and started to research stuttering and it just became worse...It kind of became a habit to stutter as always before speaking to anyone I would think of how not to stutter and of course it worked the opposite as you all know..Most people don't even know I stutter because I hide it pretty well, I would stop before a stutter and kinda pretend I'm thinking or jus say "umm" and try to find the right word I would not stutter on.. I've also asked my mom if I've ever stuttered as a child, she said that I didn't.. So I think that developemental stuttering is out of the picture.. and also no one in my family had any kind of speech disorder.. I really don't know what to do with this, I'm constantly stressing myself out.. I've said to myself that I would never go to a speech specialist because I would think about my stutter even more, I just try to forget about it.. and it sometimes works when I'm happy or preoccupied with something that I don't have time to think about my speech.. I'm also scared shittless of going to a neurologist because I'm a bit of a hypochondriac lol.. and the fact that I've started to forget things, words, sometimes I can't understand a sentence and have to read it 10 times to even try to understand it, but it happens very rarely.. All of rhis could be because of the medication or sever stress.. I really don't know.. So basically I'm asking you guys if you ever had a similar experience, or if you know anyone who experienced something like this.. It could also be that I'm so fucked up mentally that I've just imagined my stutter and the fear of it keeps it alive lol