I can’t even imagine how hard it is to be 14 years old now a day , I remember it was so hard in school with my stutter , I’m 39 now . Harming yourself will not make anything better . Please seek help . Also I know how hard it was putting yourself out there on here so I applaud you for that , you are stronger then you think & you are not alone !! ♥️♥️ this is a great community who know what you are going through