Yes. Honestly ‘acceptance’ is like… the worst feeling in the world. It’s not a feel good moment. It’s the realization that your worst fear might actually be your reality. Your hope for fluency is being murdered. And while the other side of it is freeing, the actual early process of acceptance is HARD. College years are some of the hardest years too. You’re away from a lot of the usual support or at least understanding you had with people. But you’re still in a school based setting. And everyone says it’s the best years of your life, but for PWS it’s the years your stutter can have the most influence. The moment I realized “this might never go away” was one of the most shameful moments of my life. In HINDSIGHT, it was a great moment. But it took awhile for me to realize that. Proud of you for coming to terms with this!! I do fully promise it feels better. And it’s worth it. And the real world is honestly a lot easier, even if school comes ‘easily’ (I look back and have manic laughter at my undiagnosed ADHD making me think school was ‘easy’ but also struggled to do ‘well’ in the system.) If you happen to know of any way to connect with other people your age who stutter, I’d encourage it. It’s a bit traumatizing … I mean it’s similar to exposure therapy. But once you get to know more people who stutter and you see all the personalities people have… the things you have in common with them are better than you’d expect. Like yes maybe a lot of them struggled with self doubt and confidence. But they’re also encouraging and excited and they CARE in a way you probably do too. It’s very healing, once the initial uncomfortable feelings of hearing stuttering everywhere (something you’ve avoided forever) pass. At least it was for me and the people I know.