it's not weird so much so that if you are speaking to someone and visualize that you are alone, then you don't stutter to a person in the same way if you are alone at house recording while visualizing speaking to your mother, this will cause stuttering. Basically it's not really that you want to stutter but you respect yourself as a stutterer enough to stutter. Do you see overlapping thoughts in your experience? You completely want to let luck and distraction takeover while in reality it's your convincing that needs work, you care to stutter when you are with someone so remove caring