I need urgent help regarding stuttering

I need urgent help regarding stuttering Hello, I apologize for the bad English because I speak Arabic - I have a Stuttering when I talk, I know I have to challenge society, people and myself and consider that stuttering is a positive thing, but in the street there! The pain is different! I have gone so far for vocalists and self-confidence courses and tried alternative medicine but to no avail. Today I want humanitarian help because I am thinking of committing suicide. I do not find a job even though I am a software engineer! They tell me I apologize for your stuttering and do not want someone suffering from this problem , iam 23 years old , i dont have a job , no girlfriend, no friends, no life , I can not go to a psychiatrist because I do not work and I do not have the money for that! I have spent many years and I suffer. Everyone tells me the same cheek before talking. Relax. I have become a life-hater and want to die in peace. Why did not medicine solve this problem? I hope you will present this publication because I really need help