ive just finished a presentation and i stuttered

ive just finished a presentation and i stuttered guess you all know what it feels like, you do your best not to stutter, try different methods but yet you still stutter. thats what happened. the thought that all 30 people around had to hear me stutter in almost every sentence for like 25 minutes is fucking depressing. i mean ok it wasnt that bad but i still felt it,, it made me feel sad and now angry. i fucking hate it you know. and like i know its a self spinning cycle of fear anxiety and shit but im so done. i dont even know if im introverted or extraverted. i dont know shit about myself cause every single thing i do is a decisnion of my stutter, not me. i hate that i just started uni and people aready know that i stutter. i fucking love being treated like a retard. i hate the fact that im just a stuttering boy in everyones head. whatever i do, it doesnt matter. i stutter. like i just know they gon treat me differently now. it doesnt matter what i look like, who i am or anything. i just stutter. to them, thats all they wanna know. they gon treat me with this fake kindness like they are talking to some autisic kid. i just cant take it sometimes. i really wanna be all by myself at times like this. alone forever so i, and other people, dont have to hear me stutter